Sunday, August 14, 2016

Life is starting to get back into the grind. My youngest (2 yo) is healing great from open heart surgery a couple weeks ago and we are looking fwd to continue to travel the US. Our goal is to hit all the states (except Hawaii and maybe Alaska). So far, since July of 2015 (last summer) we have hit all but 7!! YEAH! What an amazing adventure! Many we only drove thru, but for us, it counts! My goal is to find a place to live that doesn't cause me so much pain. It seems the humidity does me worse than cold. Our favorite place, so far, is Idaho. Maine and New York and Tennessee were pretty amazing too! I love the mountains! And the Ocean. And...well... I LOVE IT ALL!! Except the desert is pretty depressing in the summer.

(Rainbow Springs, FL)

I am currently working on healing my thyroid with the Hypothyroidism Revolution. It is about using the correct portions of fats, proteins and sugar to combat thyroid/adrenal/hormone issues using many resources, and especially using the research of endocrinologist, Ray Peat. The link on the image is an affiliate link and it sends you to one of those 'videos' that the guy reads, but his information is SPOT ON and is really helpful to make things really click in your brain how our bodies work.

Make sure to visit this blogsign up for his email articles and download his free sample recipes to get your thyroid boosted! It WILL change your life! And the best thing; COFFEE and SMOOTHIES are allowed :)

So my weight update is sad. I have gained back to 185. I believe some is muscle weight because I went thru a year or two of feeling so weak and had lost much muscle mass. My stamina is up and some of my strength is back. The protocol above will have some weight gain in the beginning until all hormones and blood sugar get balanced. I disagree with the author's stance on Iodine and have recently included some Lugol's solution to my regiment because it seems when you are doing everything right and still not losing, idoine may be the deal breaker! With Hashimoto's there's a chance for a relapse of issues, but there's a good chance it is due to Epstein Barr Virus being destroyed as this article suggests: The Mysteries of The Thyroid s

Friday, July 8, 2016

new updates coming soon!

Been away having an adventure this past year traveling the US in an RV with my kids! Only 9 states to go!! WOOHOO!

I am excited to share some new info I have experimented with in dealing FINALLY and nearly completely with my thyroid! I need to find a better wifi connection and start sharing!!

HOPEFULLY I remember to do it before the 26th of July because after that, I will be busy taking care of my youngest (2 yo) baby girl after open heart surgery. :( Drs tried in April to fix her 14 mm hole with a catheter patch, but it was unsuccessful. :( Life is for sure never dull around here!

So if anyone is still following me.... (anyone?? maybe?? I hear CRICKETS??? ugh... oh well) I will be sharing the info that I have learned this past year. It is diverse and maybe even a bit on the crazy side, but hey,,, nothing is much crazier than the hcg protocol I began this blog with?! lol!

Monday, May 5, 2014


Here is where I purchase my bulk herbals:

Mountain Rose Herbs

(This link is an affiliate link where I get compensated for sending you to them. I have been a customer with them for several years now and some day wish to visit this great company)

Here is where I order my herbals online. I will be placing an order soon for Stinging Nettle, Red Clover, wild Oats and Comfrey infusions. They really help especially with those girl hormones and lack of energy. Here's a link to Susun Weed, an herbalist who has a lotta good information especially about hormones and menopause changes and all that: Wise Woman Traditions

Friday, April 18, 2014


Hopefully it is spring. Hard to say this year in this state! LOL!
So things being so messed up in my body and life I think I am hitting a turning point. I hope!

LONG STORY... for those interested in a bit of drama! To find out WHY I am so messed up?

 I've officially been separated for about 16 months now and it's been quite a challenge to wrap my brain around the changes. Esp so soon after the birth of Baby Z in 2012 and a crazy trip to Wyoming to visit my brother after 14 yrs of not really seeing him.. I found out was .... well.. crazy. I was just wanting a vacation to think and have a small adventure visiting inlaws and hopefully some of my family. I guess, looking back, everyone was convinced I was running away with the kids. So the trauma of my car acting up (I'm almost convinced my brother tinkered with it to keep me there), my daughter being hospitalized out there for a week, ugh. The courts temporarily decided I was not thinking properly for the best interest of the kids and had them taken away from me while I was stranded across the country with a messed up car and my bank account access denied. Anyway... the trauma messed me up big time. It took me 2 weeks to get enough money to fly home to my kids and get money to get my car working enough to drive it back home. Lotsa drama. Thankfully, for one person I met out there, I would have lost it. His family took me in those two weeks of devastation for me.

Needless to say, a moment of weakness found me with a gift from Wyoming growing in my belly. Rough next summer dealing with separation and hiding a pregnancy! Lots of nosy and judgemental people in my life and I was not in the right frame of mind to properly or proudly deal with it. I was whipped and shamed. My last two babies are 14 months apart. I don't know how people do it! My body is very damaged by two very close pregnancies. My teeth and back. :( I blew several disks in my neck last May and took 2 months to recover. WOW!

I named her Emily Joy because I needed some joy in my life and she really is my JOY! I am so thankful for her and looking back wish I could have been in a better emotional state. Things have settled with everyone and I'm still working on the peace of the changes. Being a single parent is pretty damn hard! Hats off to all single parents! Emmie's dad is doing a great job, but is working in WY for now.

Anyway. The health part of all this... I was faithful in taking around 6000 mg Vit C during the pregnancy as well as B's (or I would have probably killed some people! LOL!) and I was having a lot of issues with dairy and wheat like the pregnancy before. I had several cases of gall stones and I learned about drinking Beet Juice to stop the pains. It helps dilate the ducts and has a bit of a pain killer and helps push the stones out within a quick time. Since her birth I was passing stones about every other week and would just write in pain until I figured out the early early symptoms and remembered to drink the juice, I could aleviate the pain. If I have an attack and don't catch it in time, the pain goes away within 10 minutes after drinking the beet juice. I am nursing, so I have to be careful about detoxing so the baby doesn't get so much toxins as my body pushes them out. I found out with baby Z that if I am having liver issues, baby will be more colicy and gassy! Sure enough, Emmie was too. Poor baby was soooo gassy. I purchased some chinese liver cleanse products through a company I have been wanting to try for several years but never had the money. This time I was desperate enough, I sucked it up and ordered. Talking with the nutritionist there, we decided to stick with only a couple of the tinctures to do a slow detox and see what happened. Within 2 weeks the baby was much less gassy (as was I!) and my liver has stopped having attacks. The one tincture really helped me sleep so much better! Crazy. The research is amazing and very involved in the gal's journey because her problems are so close to mine in the estrogen dominance and other issues. It is hard to find detox herbs that don't complicate the hormone issue!


I get NO money for sending you to their website. I am very impressed with their products and have just received a second shipment to work on a more serious regimented cleanse. Last order I just took a dose here and there of the tinctures to give slow release.

It has been almost 6 months and I have had a SLOW recovery. I'm sure all the emotional trauma of my life didn't help. As well as lack of support from anyone. My so-called friends totally abandoned me.
 My midwife said sometimes gardens need to be weeded of everything and started anew.
Oh I forgot.. her unassisted home birth was perfect, quick and very peaceful! I am very happy things went so fast. I was in prodromal labor for several weeks and my OB figured I would deliver at home because I was half dilated and effaced for so long. I believe labor took 30 minutes. Awesome!

Supplementing with enough Vit C has been researched to help with pregnancy, birth and breastfeeding:

So onto health. I've been crazy woman ever since her birth tho! Crying, depression, brain fog, anger...very very sad. Went to the dr and got some blood tests. She said I may be low estrogen. Well, I have always been low estrogen, but my progesterone was lower making me still estrogen dominant. Crazy! So I got buncha labs done and got her report saying everything is low but within normal limits. I HATE THAT! So I ordered the book 'STOP The Thyroid Madness' and will bring a copy to her and see if she will do a bit more research to help me because my one daughter is exhibiting the same symptoms of adrenal fatigue and hashimoto's craziness. I got a copy of my labs and decided to try some herbals to stop my crazy moods. Gaining 20 pounds in a couple months is WRONG! Could also be side effects of tubal ligation surgery too. I found out AFTER the fact that it is a horrible surgery to go thru because of the damage it does to many ladies hormones and often kills the ovaries. (very sad sad face)

I am hovering at 185. The same weight after Emmie was born. I had gone down to 170'ish and I learned that breastfeeding nearly ALWAYS causes a bit of weight gain. Every other country knows this but America, it seems! So I'm ok with this bit, just frustrated because pants are not fitting so well. Baby's dad loves my squish. I'm not so fond of it tho! LOL!

Herbal Infusions. I'm pretty sure I blogged about them before. But here is a link to a great article on dealing with infusions and hormones.

So. Once again, reintroducing myself to the Stinging Nettle, Comfrey Leaf, Red Clover and Wild Oats has brought PEACE and SANITY to my life! And some bit of energy! So I am happy. Hopefully this will help everything.

So Sorry for such a crazy long post. Shows how my brain is still not quite on par for me, but I'm on the UP side, it seems! Onto a busy weekend of building a playhouse for the kids. Actually, THEY will be building. I will be supervising! Happy Day!

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Skin Rash and celiac??

It's been awhile and life has been crazy, crazy here. Can't go into details but it is really, really messed up. The stress of a very sick daughter, the birth of my 6th child, a festival accomplished and successful, all got to me in a great moment of reflection. I am nearly 40 years old and have too much unhappiness in my life. I decided to make some very scary changes and find out who "I" am. Seems people around me didn't like this idea so well and unnecessary war was waged and people have shown me to be very ... well .... horrid. My life is forever changed. Onward, to a new path. Gotta heal for a bit first before I can move forward.

On the good side, I did discover, quite accidentally, that I may probably have Celiac!? One email I get on a regular basis is all about gallbladder health and symptoms. One recent email was about celiac and some 'hidden' symptoms. My 2nd daughter has studied about celiac and has taken herself off wheat and has totally felt better and her skin has cleared up. Her main symptoms when eating wheat has been major brain fog, joint pain and pimply skin. Sadly, I haven't really studied up on the condition (or is it considered a disease?) Anyway, for quite a few years I would break out on my legs with a rash that resembles shingels very closely, but without the pain. Severely itching, angry red liquid filled blistery rash on my legs. HORRID itching that seemed to spread. NOTHING I did naturally or homeopathically seemed to help one bit. I would suffer a couple months and then it would just go away. Thought maybe it was poison ivy the dog or cat would bring in on their hair until I broke out while on vacation. Hmm. It has been a couple years and no rash, so I figured it was just one of those things. A couple weeks ago, my eldest daughter broke out with the same rash!!? Freaky! Not as bad as me, tho, but identical. A couple weeks later, it went away.

OK, back to that gallbladder email I received talked about Dermatitis Herpetiformis. THAT RASH now has a name?! OMG! Totally relates to celaic?!! Could be why the rash stopped appearing, although, I thought I was decently gluten-free during my last outbreak. I still occasionaly inbibe in small amounts here and there(onion rings ... yummm...), but really have no desire to eat much by way of wheat products so it's not a biggie. Now armed with this new knowledge, I am more cautious about those little cheats.

Most grains, tho, seem to cause me gut disturbance so I avoid most of them. Corn, of all grains (eeeegh) seems to be the only one I can eat?! I still drink the RAW MEAL smoothies several times a day or so. Been doing a modified HCG protocol again (I'll talk about that in a future post) and I'm still losing fat. Got that old lady arm skin hanging... :-/. Never had that before because my arm fat NEVER went down very much while on any weight loss protocol. (there could be a 'spiritual' side to this as I have learned that people holding onto fat in their arms have a sense of never being able to give love like they feel they need. Belly fat is the feeling they have never been loved like they deserved ... "Feelings Buried Alive Never Die" by Karol K. Truman) My body is completely changing again. For the better, but I am freaking out a little. I don't recognize myself some days! LOL! But I am SOOO happy that my arms are going down. Funny how big arms can make a person feel so huge in pictures! But it's also in the fit of clothing too. Today's fashions seems to be soo unflattering to anyone without boney arms. Another place I'm losing is the chest boob area. Makes the ladies seems smaller.. I can no longer wear my pirate stays and balance cups on my chest! lol! But I still fit a DDD cup. Go figure? strange happenings going on! The next few months will be interesting for sure.

Side note: HCG and nursing... jury is out, but the common consensus is that hcg will reduce milk supply. Mostly on the fact of calorie reduction causes milk supplcy reduction. I have issues with this because how do women in starving or very low calorie situations (war, famine, etc) still provide for babies? I tend to believe that our bodies will sacrifice for the good of the next generation. So yeah, our teeth and hair and bones will take the brunt of feeding our young ones. So that's my 2 cents on that one. I did notice a problem with my milk supply with the last baby, but I was also under EXTREME stress in my personal life which also can contribute to the decreased supply. As big as my boobs are, I have almost always struggled with supply so it was nothing new for me to experience. (I get TONS of comments that my big boobs means I have lotsa milk... ugh.. people ... get educated... it's not about the size!! lol!)

So after the last baby, I decided to corset my belly to see if that helps pull in the belly and to my happy surprise.. IT DID! I had this thought that since everything inside was being pushed around by the baby, if I only corseted my midsection long enough, maybe things would stay IN instead of getting pushed back out. IT WORKED! I was able to see great results in a more reduced waistline than I have had in a LONG time!! Squeee!! That was sooo exciting! I did a round of hcg a few months after baby last year to help tighten up loose skin everywhere and it did a good job. Even with that horrid momma belly hanging down!!

I really think taking time to work on my adrenals, gallbladder and thyroid was VERY important to all this. I do feel much happier inside, my brain fog is not as common anymore, my thyroid tests seems to be all 'normal', I sleep better and the weight does not seem to be packing on like it used to.

Only thing that hasn't happened, that I was hoping for, would be a reduction in spondylitis problems. That has gotten worse. :-( To the point I seems to be blowing disks more and more often. Did a doozy in May. Woke up one morning with a kink in my neck that curled me right over within a week, severe nerve pain shooting down my arm. I was unable to hardly move for over a month. Definitely wanted to die. Couple blown disks were pushing on nerves. Thankfully I found a physical therapist that was able to loosen my back enough to make life bareable again. He said my back, hips and pelvis were all in really bad shape. Been working on me weekly since May (5 months now!). So that is that. Seems I've hit the downward spiral age of spondy. Ticks me off quite a bit, but been working on bettering my life so I can look back and not think that this disease stole too much from me at such an early age.

Ok, well, the baby bubs is getting into everything and I must get off the computer before he escapes his big brothers and gets on the table to push the off button!

I will be back and see if I can post some pictures comparing myself recently with the time I did hcg years ago the first time when I was actually 20 lbs lighter! Crazy to see how it is different this time. Here's a recent one of me.. notice the old-lady arm skin hanging under my arm! LOL! The whole side-boob-under-arm area is going away too. These are maybe not the best pics of me, but shows very well how the loss is going upstairs. 184 pounds here a couple weeks ago the first two images. The purple & pink are from last night. My rear and legs are pretty amazing too when comparing a few years ago. Not able to show any more than this at the moment, but soon...!

This one below was taken a couple weeks earlier. I don't see the same skin hanging, and then remember as I lose, things get loose, wobbly and kinda gross. It's hard to push thru that stage.

These two (purple n pink) I took last night.

OK! I found a good past picture! (I got big again and stopped getting pictures of me) Computer broke, so trying to find images on all these external hard drives is not easy! Here's when I was at 207lbs Oct 2011 when I announced the pregnancy of my 6th child (notice the symbolism in the picture! LOL!) Second pic is a week or less before the baby was born in Aug 2012. I delivered at 207 lbs! (Baby and birthing things weigh about 20-30 lbs. For the first time ever I lost after birth and kept it off... went down to 170 in the months following!

And here's the link to me at 165 at the USMC Ball in 2008 when I was on a roll! lol!

Quite different I looked back then! I've gotta scan a different one in where I didn't crop out my large arms and post it when I can.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Baby has arrived with a surprise!

My whole pregnancy was unique for me this time and ended up being a very, very good thing to happen!

I had a lot of tummy problems and even passed gallstones twice! eek! I finally figured out that all forms of dairy and wheat really caused havoc on my gut and so I cut them all out with pretty good results. I even cut out eggs, just in case. I started feeling really great and I noticed that when my spondylitis flares, I normally would get strange little pimples in my scalp, behind my ears, on my jawline and chin area. But when I cut out the wheat this time, they have not come back! I've cut out wheat before, with no specific results so this is odd for me to see such a dramatic difference. It could be part of the healing, or maybe nothing. I found that I could tolerate Garden of Eden's RAW meal replacement shakes (gluten, dairy & soy free). Although, I only drank maybe 1 1/2 servings cuz I had a very small appetite. I also was able to eat Taco Bell nachos. It was a crazy craving!

I gained about 10-15 pounds and then lost it the last month and a half. I went to nearly 40 weeks this pregnancy, which is very odd for me. But the last 3 1/2 weeks of my pregnancy, my middle daughter was in the hospital with status epilepticus. A lot of stress those weeks as the docs were having a difficult time getting her brain to settle down. It is very difficult to see your daughter lose all function and have to re-learn everything. Thankfully, she is doing ok, even though we got a confirmed diagnoses of Lennox-Gaustaut syndrome and possible Hashiimoto's Encephalopathy.

I was starting & stopping labor the whole time and had a blast teasing the hospital staff that I was going to deliver in the room on their shift. Their reactions were fantastic!! Some were excited and others were terrified! LOL!

This baby went the longest gestation and was my largest baby at 8lbs, 11 oz.(15 inch head with his huge hands there too!). He was born at home and the next day we attended our Pirate Festival that whole week because I just couldn't stay away after so much work planning and preparing! AND I just could not miss the ROMANS!! Here's a link to some photos of the event.

Me & baby boy at 3 weeks old:


Anyway, after baby was born and the water weight expelled itself by day 3, I ended up weighing 32 lbs less than when I got pregnant. (207 to 175) My whole body and everything seemed to change for the better! What a great mid-life occurrence! LOL!



I am a little scared I will re-gain everything, but I am a little hopeful I won't. The hair on my legs is growing faster which is a symptom of my adrenals healing. During my pregnancy, I was able to get some blood labs to confirm my thyroid was still making the T3 hormones, but not absorbing it. My RT3 levels were over 500, so I stopped taking the synthroid and the heart palps went away and I started feeling better. I don't have the brain fog so bad and life seems much better, all things considering. Lots of stress in my life, but I am continuing to work on a good balance so as to not unduly damage myself.

Today, I am 6 weeks post-partum and weighing in at 170 pounds! Hubby and I are loading and starting hcg protocol once again.

I will continue with the Garden of Eden shakes as my food because I know it is safe. Hubby's goal is to get back into his uniform for the USMC birthday ball in November. My goal is to maybe lost 10 - 20 pounds and at least tighten the jiggly parts up a bit. I am also happy that my spondy problems are in a bit of a remission, which helps a TON as well because now I can go on walks with the kids and get my body moving.

Ok, that is my update. We are starting hcg today.